Solitary Isolated

Got woke up this morning and realized the early morning activities had missed again. Started to lock these eyes in grumpiness and disappointment. Then thought of something about lonely came up. Why is one can feel that way? why does the phrase 'feeling lonely in the crowd' is created? what is lonely, by the way ? is it made up of bored? no, it is not. 

Whatever it is, it is the best feeling in the world.

The eyes began to shut and then (mute).

Watching Today

Just got back from the friend's house. Had helped them to cook. Not a complicated one, just made a regular soup. Indonesian regular soup that consisted with many vegetables such as, carrot, cabbage, and peas. The thing that made me hilarious then was, my friend was ran out of water. But, he did not show any move to fill the new one. I shouted to him that we do not have water to drink anymore. But, he still did not move his lazy ass and sit still staring at the monitor. Then I came back to kitchen and started to fill the glass with tap water. Yeah, I hardcorely made the soup using it. Then there it all happened. We just sit and ate and being stupid. Could hear one of them said, "hey, this is not bad!!". Yeah, eat it up, asshole. I told nothing to them and not even touched the dish I 've made. If the next hours one of them get sick, well the tap water had just started the introduction. 

The new semester will be starting next week. Entering the last year of college (time flies madly). Three months holiday had passed splendidly. I found new love. Love here does not always mean the opposite sex. It means love that truly made  happy cause of bursting of laugh and spirit (pret). Well lets just reveal that in this last three weeks, I spent my hours of life watching Running Man. I know, it is lame, it is ketinggalan-jaman, it is kemana-ajeh-lo-empat-taun-lalu?, it is oh-my-plis-here-is-the-new-kpoper-wanabe, well I don't give a damn. I really like watching it, specially the old episodes.

(from left to right: Kim Jong Kook, Yoo Jae Suk, Kwang Soo, Ha Dong Hoon, Ji Suk Jin, Song Ji Hyo, Kang Gae Ri) 

I really barely know this variety show. Yeah, ketinggalan jaman emang. It is just, gue biasanya gak gandrung sama semua hal yang happening. Tapi begitu ada kemauan untuk lihat dan ternyata suka, ya beginilah hasilnya. Tapi gak semua hal yang happening (yang mau gue lihat) bakalan end up dengan kesukaan berlebih gue. Jarang. Tapi untuk acara ini, still being an opium. My favorite members in it are Yoo Jae Suk and the only woman, Song Ji Hyo.  Well, I want to say sorry and thank you for those who have tried to seduce me before to watch it (and ended up a failure). I moved my own hand to open the folder and these eyes can not stop watching them. Let the time alone stop me.

The same hand-movement also happened to the whole Twilight Saga, but it ended up with this kind of facial expression -.-. Have tried The Avangers and Ironman, not working too. People are now babbling about Guardians of Galaxy, I have sense already that I will end up with those Marvel product facial expression. The conclusion is, I do not like 'hero-hero' movie kind of thing, I am sorry!

 I am more enjoying Annie Hall from Woody Allen for holiday. His movies are like kinds of my movie. Try yourself to see Annie Hall, Midnight in Paris, The Scoop, To Rome with Love, and Fading Gigolo. Could be said, I love Woody Allen. He is satirical and have wild imagination. Also, just like Murakami, Allen knows how to make something memorable by adding some particular songs. Billy Holiday to Luciano Pavarotti, well done, Allen!

I actually want to declare that I will fill this box everyday. But, I am tired hearing myself bragging that way. So then, lets just hope I wont miss the box for months like I did before. Black Socks really wants to be useful to another human.

kemana aja sih?

Hai, Lupa kalo masih inget password ini. Gue gak kemana-mana kok, masih di sini aja, depan leptop, about to gag cause of duties. Besok sambung lagi ah

Late Introducing

Hai, hello, здравстуй!

I have just remembered that I have not introduced myself. Sorry.

The name is Amalia Nur Fitri. Amel is for the short name. A student in University of Indonesia class 2011. The true Aquarian (yes, I believe those zodiac thingies), was born in Jakarta, January 28th, lives in Depok and Bekasi. Really like chatting directly, reading classic works, listening to any kind of music (jazz, classic, blues, pop, alternative, k-pop, j-pop), can cook (pretty good at it,), love knowing new person, discussing and asking everything in life, adoring sarcastic jokes and intelligent creature, merindukan life partner (cuih!). Yeah, I know it sounds boring. 

Here I am trying to spare another baloney. Hope someone can stick around and get something. I try to be useful to mankind with this account, so please understand it. 

I am a Russian Studies student. Well, I can't speak Russian perfectly (yet), but a big fan of the literature and culture. Have to admit that Tolstoy and Dostoyevsky have changed the life also the way of thinking. You can spare your time, thinking about death by reading The Death of Ivan Ilyich, Tuhan Tahu Tapi Menunggu, and Anna Karenina. I am sorry to say that for the first time you spend your time with Tolstoy, you'll get bore for sure. But please go on until finish line, you will surprise by what he brings for your narrow mind. So that Dostoyevsky! I adore him so much. Try understand him in The Notes from The Underground, The Idiot and Kejahatan dan Hukuman. His works lots of satirical lines, so funny in his own way but lots of knowledge that you get. He complained a lot, which suites everyone. 

But for newbie, try to look Sinel-Синел (The Coat) from Gogol. Read and be upset, hilarious, sad, and satisfy. Or you can go glimpsing at Pervaya Lyubov-Первая Любовь (First Love) from Turgenev. Dramatic and hyperbolic for a teenager that barely in love for someone in opposite sex. 

Please, cut off in mind that Russia is a communist country. Russia is a Republic Country which also adores Democracy (yeah, adore) just like Indonesia. Communist Manifesto, Lenin-Stalin, The cult, Gulag, etc. are no longer in use technically now (technically yeah).

Well, Russia has become the part of me, so it is also being the part of introduction (unconsciously realise). Learning and understanding Russia wont make you regret if you turn to be a Marxist (or even an anarchist) in the end.

Those the things I love, clearly have big passion on reading. For the opposite thing is not many, I can not stand banality minded. You can call it stupidity. I can weep seeing those kinds of things, and frankly it more often occur in the everyday life. Well, c'est la vie. 

I think that is enough, thank you, рада познакомиться с Вами :)   

Here is one my favorite picture for you,

BUGS

You know, it is useless. Everything that you have made up, all those images which people want to see in you, those are not working on me. I am sorry, but all I can see just an image of a person with immature emotional bragging for attentions. All I can see is a person who treats one as an object to be judged. You said you hate judging, but all you can do is judging society. All I can see is just a person who need others but instead of greet one, you prefer judge one bad and stupid. I am sorry, but you already hurted tons of good people. I am not babbling about myself.

It is you and your thought. You made your own negative circle. You succeeded made your own cloud but when it gets to rain, you are mad, congratulation.

I really want to tell you, my good friend, stop manipulating people. Stop manipulating people and make yourself as a victim. Stop manipulating me as a bad one. As a person who utilizing, dumping, picky and so on. Everything that you had in mind-negative mind. Then you spread it out all over the media. Society sees you, darling. Not as a wise one but on the contrary. Great.

 I still get to be judged after all. So, до свидания!

                                                                                               
                                                                                                                     

Coming Back with Blah Blah

This night. I don't know how long I left my Black Socks until I met beggar in front of the door. Well, try to be more often to write in here. Will write anything or report something silly like I did in my last blog. For today, I want to declare that I am officially run a new habit. Me and my friend, Julia, always ride a bicycle after college. Do not care whether the sun burns or the rain pours, we keep on our track to ride a bicycle. Muterin universitas.

 
Honestly, dua hari pertama sepedahan belum buat kaki  terbiasa, alhasil setiap selesai sepedahan pasti kaki gemeter bahkan pas jalan jadi lemes kayak orang mau jatoh. Kayak tiba-tiba kena polio. Track yang disusuri berawal dari Pos Sepeda di depan Stasiun UI dan berakhir di Asrama UI. Asyik lho! Pulangnya naik Bikun deh, tidur.

But, well. It seemed that I will find another easy exercise activity. Because, by cycling you have to depend on the mas-mas and the UI student card and the time, bla, bla, and bla. Better go swimming or running later. 

Other nuts, The final test come closer. So better keep the eyes on it. I get lot of things to butch. Wish me luck, hope that charming lecturer overwhelmed of my essay for him :' *self slap*

See you soon, folks!

Takuya in the Dawn

The clock now is striking 2.38 am, and my eyes open still. Ngerasa capek sih badan, tapi gak tau kenapa sayang aja kalo tidur. Padahal besok pagi kuliah jam 08.00 dan, oh well shit happens. Sampai akhirnya mendarat di sini pun, gue gak tau harus ngapain. Gak tau mau apa.

Blah blah blah... I am writing like a zombie..

But, talking about sharing, I got some new hymnes accompanying right now. Those are only five songs in my playlist, though. Therefore :

1. Amy Winehouse - I Heard Love is Blind

2. Tika - You Belong to Me

3. Sore - Karolina

4. Belle and Sebastian - Funny Little Frog

5. Elisabeth Schwarzkopf & Walter Gieseking

This is kind of celebration that Takuya finally becoming 'handsome' again :"D and we can spend the night together like this, after he settled from the crash. Yep, those virus made him down last few days and here we are. the days seemed so long without Takuya. I promise I will keep my eyes and watch right in there, Takuya!

By The way, Takuya is my leptop. He is cold but I still give him a hug sometime :')

Bye, Good night morning!